LEGIBLE CHAOS

I’d rather die

Than live one more “Free” day

In this Prison…

It’s not the food or board

Which has me down

It’s that “Lock & Key” sound

It’s knowing i’m trapped here

Until Fate sees fit

To unleash my talent, potential, and wit

My Life is a Prison

From which i can barely see

Hollywood Hills glistening

I’d trade my chains

for the most meager portion

Of that endless fortune

Trade these shackles 

For a tidbit of fame

A handful of fools

To recall my name

And agree in unison

“He’s got that something special”

But i’m here encaged

Roomed with my ambition and rage

And theres an ever-present anger 

Etched onto my face

Because this bright something

Is a prisoner to oppressive tastes

And well on his way

To becoming

The one thing he fears most

I feel like crying out
But there’s no one left to cry to
At least not since I lost you
Even though you’re insistent
That I didn’t
I can feel it
Like unexpected rain
Chasing away a sunny day
You’re gone and I know it
So now these tears are flowin’
Without a kind soul
To wipe them away
And help me regain control
Your absence takes it’s toll
Imagine the earth
Without the Suns warmth
My mind is just as bare and desolate
Without your heaven sent face
To make me forget defeats bitter taste
And this pain ain’t laced
I tried to drown it away
But I heard your voice more clearly
With each shot of Bombay
And each pill that I chase
With liqour, Weed, and hate
Doesn’t dwindle the Time
Which I’ve spent away
In a state of decay
Awaiting your return or death
Because waiting is the only thing I have left

Nicotine on my lunches
To keep me rolling with the punches
A Weed binge when I get home
I’m only happy when my minds blown
A little alcohol to justify the sins
I’ll commit only to repent
Again and again
And so again I’m turning to these pills
Enjoying the numbness rendered by hydros
Strolling through hell popping Zannies as I go
I’ll keep trudging until I crash
And fall on my ass
Ginseng and caffeine suffice as uppers
I’m wide awake as I suffer
Through this existence
All these substances mixed with
The purest pain
Are like the sunshine I strive to see
In this endless flux of rain

We’re floating on starshps
Drifting away, away
Away from the problems of the Day
Into deep space so Gay like clumsy bumblebees
Or drunks stumbling to their cars
The safest dangers aren’t up to par

I’m giving my borrowed time back
I’m going away
As inhumane temperatures. Cause my starship to crack
I fall to decay
I’m falling away
Where no soul lay

As we Flow Through magic windows I feel infinite Through the guise Of a God’s eyes I see all things I see what pain brings I hear when Saints sing For the departed Martyrs I taste the Desolate tears Of father’s with hellbound Daughter’s Sheep ripe for the Slaughter How can I fault Her? Without journeying where I never Should have gone The darkest of the Dawns I’ve ever seen The Damndeds wicked Queen Yelling impulsive insults Like a shooting star disrupts a calm Night Sky The debris resting uneasy like ripples in Darkness I witnessed all this While steady slipping Into a complacent Nothingness Bliss swallowed like pure Honey Sweet is the inevitable time Of our untimely demise
As we Flow
With the Devine

The hardest part of living
Is the daily facade
They want smiles
They want joy
I am their suffering toy
I am the world’s whipping boy
I am the pawn in the grand ploy
O aim to destroy this fucked up cycle

The hardest part of loving
Is you not being in my arms
The daily ache of a passion
Laid to waste
I know just how that sadness tastes
Bitter and clear affection wreaks of fear
The salt of my tears
Numbs my lips
Realities kiss

The hardest part of knowing
Is the absence of bliss
The hardest pain is the longing
For the affection you miss
The hardest part of living
Is the daily facade
They want smiles
They want joy
I am their suffering toy
I am the world’s whipping boy
I am the pawn in the grand ploy
O aim to destroy this fucked up cycle

The hardest part of loving
Is you not being in my arms
The daily ache of a passion
Laid to waste
I know just how that sadness tastes
Bitter and clear affection wreaks of fear
The salt of my tears
Numbs my lips
Realities kiss

The hardest part of knowing
Is the absence of bliss
The hardest pain is the longing
For the affection you miss

Floating lifeless padt Andromeda
This is the result
Of too much stargazing
I’m floating, floating
Past stars decaying
Lights which flicker
O have likewise lost my glimmer
If I wasn’t numb I’d shiver
For this uninhabitable space
Is rough on a man
Regardless of age
The jovial nature of a jester
And the wisdom of a sage
Are all I have for comfort
Now that I’m unchained
I couldn’t withstand the journey
And remain unchanged

Don’t let that relentless hell hound “Burden”
Slow you down
As you ascend to the Heavens
Twenty a gram is the price of omission
You won’t need repentance
Where you’re going.
This rolling river with not judge you

View the world for what it is.
From behind a Realist’s telescope
Though this may sound “pessimistic”
I feel there is no hope
For society
Lone gone is our sobriety from insanity
All humanity stand drunken by life
And it’s nature of plight

We crave the wicked madness
As if we were starving for mayhem
Aching for spilt blood
Longing for a flood
Agony drowning this plague of Apathy

. Wild West mentality and paranoid riven fallacies
Is this our kill or be killed reality?
Sanity quakes with the sound of a gun
Like the day ends with the dying sun

I drank so much
To drown my various pains
I fell in love and ran through the rain
I grew up a bit
But found an unchanged youth
These occurrences are my most treasured loot
I dug a bit to find words deeper
And truer to express undying love
In a land of death
A sentiment which is doomed to fail
I know my heaven and have seen my hell
How much that aids me
Only time will tell
The biggest happening of the year
Remains the inevitable tears
In retrospect I knew better
Than to fall for a friend
It’s amazing I didn’t realize
Until the years end